Autumn

The season of autumn, seems to be a time of uncertainty for me. Although I felt the anticipation coming as the days had begun to get shorter and the cold weather returned, more than just the natural characteristics put my in a tense mood when September comes. When 'regular' youth return to school, and the rest of society goes back to their regular jobs after having taken summer holidays... my promotional world inevitably becomes inverted, and I feel most lost. Promotions run best in the summertime, and after that I'm usually left struggling for work.

Two years ago at this time, I said "screw it" and went off to the UK and Europe not thinking about the money it would cost me to go or how I would get around. I figured I'd just make it up as I go along. Last year, i was facing unemployment and indifference, and this year, I'm trying to keep an optimistic attitude where the job situation lies.

I came to these realizations via facebook of all mechanisms. The post told me what my update was 2 years ago, and the year before. Seems like when the leaves start falling, my life turns the same shade of brown and uneventfulness.

Maybe this year will break the mold?

These days, I've become semi-lame and unsocial. Not in general, but more-so when it comes to my night life. The non-summer-like weather has caused me to reflect on where I spend my time and what I spend it doing. Normally hangouts at the pub down the road are my idea of a successful night out, but with the bar taking away my favorite drink specials during the imfamous "power hour", and firing all but one of my favorite staff, the act of consuming alcohol has lost it's essance also. Tuesday is usually known as date night, where my best friend and I venture across town to a movie theatre that allows us to bee below-average movie theatres for ridiculously low prices. It's become a tradition among us, getting us out of the house and giving us the feeling that we are somehow tied in to the rest of society because we had shared the expeience of 2 wasted hours at a medeocre movie. But the friend and I have stopped hanging out due to a dumb dispute and stubbornness, and with NE ctrain construction, I opt out of going more often than not. This week migh also be the last week during which I have a job. Hopefully that's not the case, but it is a possibility as the work was summer-based. The finding of a new gig may complicate my life a bit also. But the next few days are filled with 7am start time and rush-hour commutes which I am thankful for, along with the employment. As I left my house at 6:10 this morning, I walked down to the train in a daze. When I heard a noise super close behind me in the shadows, I freaked the fuk out. Turns out I had cut a guy off or nearly walked into him on the path. It's dark but that was kind of ridiculous. He decided to strike up a conversation about his roommates and being awake, wich I quickly ended, cuz fuk buddy, no one wants to speak to randoms first thing in the morning. And now I am at work, trying to make the world a less litter-filled place, hoping that more people care to fix the environment rather than continuing to destroy it.